I keep just going missing don't I.
It's not intentional, it just happens. Then I come up with excuses as to why I'm not writing or blogging but lets but honest, excuses don't matter. I'm not writing and that's not good.
I've lost my writing./blogging mojo.
No, scratch that, I've misplaced it. Also I've gone into collecting underpants mode. I'm reading about writing, I'm buying books about writing, I'm talking about writing and story ideas. But I'm not actually writing.
Honestly, I'm even finding writing this a struggle. Writing is hard! Especially if you're out of the habit of writing and thinking people want to hear what you have to say.
I actually googled "losing my blogging mojo" just to see what would come up. Yup, lots of bloggers lose their mojo for blogging. It seems for all sorts of reasons. I'm not the only one! YAY!
One of the main bits of advice from the pieces that I read was, "remember why you started."
I started this blog 8 years ago when I was lost. I had just quit a job that was slowly crushing my spirit and I was in a place in my life where I wasn't sure where I fit in or what in my life was mine. This blog had no direction. It was just random posts about life. About our cat, about being married or about making cheese. It was all over the place.
Then we moved.
I was handed a blogging niche on a Swiss made cheese board.
For a long time this corner of the interweb has been a place for me to write about my moments of expat win and moments of expat "I just can't even..." I've written about pros and cons, surviving, traveling and being a trailing spouse. I wanted this place to be a port in the expat storm and I think I've accomplished that.
Another bit of wisdom I got from the posts I read was "try something new."
I like new things. New things are great.
So I sat with this a bit. What new thing could I possibly write about here.
We're no longer surviving as expats. We're thriving.
Our life is here now. We're settled for the first time in our marriage. We've go a network of people whom we care about and adore. Or as I said recently to a friend, "we have people we would ask to help us move." We're no long trying to make it work in this country. It's working and we're living a life that is less "ERMERGERD what do we do!!???" and more "right, so what we need to do is."
I realized this while I was going over the 5 or so unfinished blog posts in my draft folder. They were all about how we have been pretty successful recently or how we've felt like triumphant expats. I was worried people wouldn't want to read about two expats excelling at life overseas. I was also worried that I would come off like a show-off. I don't why I thought that. People wanted to read about us bumbling our way through Swiss living so I would certainly hope people would want to know that things aren't as scary or chaotic as they use to be. And it's not showing off, we have a pretty normal life is just happens to be in a different country.
There is a certainty and a confidence about our life here now that I love and find a lot of comfort in. For so long we lived with a lot of unknowns or with a cloud over of us about what will happen next. But the clouds are gone. It's not all rainbows and sunshine. No. We still deal with some expat strife like guilt or feeling a disconnect with our families but it's not the same as it was and that is lovely.
We have come so far and I want my little corner of the internet to reflect that.
So bear with while I shift gears.
Don't worry there will still be posts about us being ridiculous Canadians living in Switzerland and the buffoonery that comes with it. But I hope that I can give you a peek at what we've done to make this place that was only suppose to be a pit stop into a home.