Number 10 on my 30 before 30 list is to look fabulous by 30. Now I know I'm already pretty fabulous inside but the glorious vehicle that my brain rides around is needs a little work. Just some touch up work really. Since moving here I've battled the writers body (the exact opposite of a swimmers body) and the unending access to chocolate and cheese by trying to keep active. Sometimes I'm successful and sometimes I'm not. What matters is that I'm trying.
I've been a fan of blogilates for a while. Even if I only have 3 minutes she has something that will get me off my butt and moving. And 3 minutes later I'm a sweaty mess convinced she's is trying to kill me or that she hates me. At the end of June she announced she was going to be hosting a dietbet. Awesome!
Basically the idea is you bet $25 that you can lose 4% of your body weight in 30 days. If you make your goal the pot is split between the winners. Yup you reap the benefits of someones failure. That's basically my kind of thing. What can I say, I'm a bit of a jerk. So I was in. I figured this would be a great way to build a healthy routine and kick off this whole "looking fabulous" thing on my 30 before 30 list. So I paid my $25 and convinced my friend Mariana to join me in this little fitness adventure. I weighed in and found out I had 6ish pounds to lose.
That seemed like no big deal. A challenge but no big deal. Plus the pot grew to about $149,700.00 so I figured my odds were pretty okay and the paid day would be pretty decent if I succeeded. Plus there was a big community of people doing this at the same time.
I've been debating how to present my dietbet experience because it wasn't all good but it wasn't all bad either. So when in doubt be brutally honest.
It wasn't for me. I'm competitive but this went from being competitive to obsessively weighing myself and worrying about a damn number way to quickly for my liking.
The eating healthy end of things isn't a big deal to me. I've been eating healthy and "clean" since we moved here. Or as the Swiss call it, eating. Yeah "clean" eating, 100 mile diet blah blah blah isn't a thing here. It's just what's done. No buzz words no "lifestyle" it's just how you eat here and it's the cheapest way to eat as well. You eat seasonally and locally if you want to save cash. How wonderful is that?! So the eating thing was already figured out before this even started. I know my triggers for emotional eating and I'm also mindful. Sure I'll have some twizzlers but I've finally gotten to a place now where I'll only have some not all. Dieting has never been my thing being mindful has been.
The working out thing though wasn't figured out. It's still being figured out actually. I tried. I worked out before breakfast. I worked out after breakfast. I worked out before I opened my email. I worked out in the afternoon after I had done my run to the grocery store. I'm still figuring out what works best for me.
Now here's the part where I tell you all the reasons it wasn't for me. I hated the fact that it made me feel chained to my scale. I've never actually ever cared to much what the number on my scale said. Never. I've never cared about my BMI either. Mostly because it's an outdated science but also an incredibly poor way to determine health. But it's never been a big deal to me. I've always just been mindful. See it's the word again. Being mindful. This whole dietbet experience stripped me of being mindful and turned me into someone who was chained to their scale and became militant about achieving a specific number. Not awesome. Despite all the positiveness that was coming out of the community I was feeling down right depressed about the whole thing. It was taking the fun out of eating. It was making working out a chore. It was making me angry that I wasn't achieving specific goals when really I should have been happy I was losing weight period. I weighed myself 3 times in one morning. I was that worried about losing the game not losing the weight. That's just not right.
I'm not the only one who felt like this either. My friend Mariana who I roped into this whole experience felt very much the same way. You can read her experience on her blog.
I managed to lose 3.8 pounds with pretty decent effort but it wasn't enough and I became one of those failure other people benefited from. And rather than celebrating those 3.8 pounds I beat myself up about the 3 I didn't lose. So not me and so not right.
So the dietbet thing wasn't for me (or for my friend for that matter.) There are a lot of people it did work for it seems and I'm happy for them. As for me I'm just relieved I don't have to worry about a number any more and I can just go back to figuring out what works best for me.