Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name.

Thank you Jason Martin for the coolest picture of me ever
The story behind my blogs moniker isn't an overly enteraining one but I think the meaning of the name speaks VOLUMES about me.

First lets look at what the words mean individually;


1. (a.) Of uncertain event or issue;
2. (a.) Occasioning doubt; not clear, or obvious; equivocal; questionable; doubtful;
3. (a.) Doubtful or not settled in opinion;

Hausfrau: (n.) The German word for Housewife.

So losely "translated" the title means the doubtful or questionable housewife.

Honestly, I don't strike people as the housewife type. I swear a lot, I hate doing the laundry, I'm pretty cool with clutter, I never make the bed, I love my husband but he's not my be all and end all and my cleaning skills are pretty questionable. But there is a part of me that wants to be good at some of those typical domestic tasks. Although as my father has pointed out to my mother last October, "If she's good at what she does for a living why do her cleaning skills matter?" Which is true my sink might not always be shiny and I might currently be running dangerously low on clean socks and underwear but I am AMAZING at me job and other things like not smothering my husband in his sleep and making bacon nachoes.

The name (and this blog for that matter) happened in July of last year. I decided to leave my job. I needed to step away. I wasn't coping well anymore. I worked as a fundraiser and volunteer coordinator for a grassroots wish granting organization that granted wishes to children in my province with a life-threatening illness. Previous to that position I worked with grieving parents. The time came where I needed to step back from my career and collect myself. I had lost myself somewhere between working with children who may or may not die and working with parents who are walking a very dark and lonely grief journey. I got lost in there somewhere.
So I walked away. I had the full support of my friends, family and husband. So I was faced with a rather uncertain future. The plan is I will eventually go back to work in my field. I think my brain would explode it I didn't. But in the interim I'm dawning the noble title of housewife and I had NO IDEA what I was doing.